holy crap.

Im so down right now. I went to this school dance on friday night and one of my facebook friends tagged me in a pic (i was trying to avoid cameras) and I swear when I saw it online a few minutes ago I wanted to cry. so much fat over my stomach that i looked pregnant. I am so embarassed I dont know what Im going to do. I havent eaten all day long....I probably wont eat tomorrow. Im entering this part of my ED where i dont even need food.. Its always on my mind which is why i sometimes loose my willpower but Im so addicted to my magic pills that I have zero appetite for the most part. I need this weight gone guys. Im really going crazy. I swear i pop 28 pills a day and drink water bottle after water bottle with some diet cokes and diet snapples in the mix. I want the resul.ts to come faster than this! if i werent so sick id go work out but I feel theres so much phlegm in my throat I cant even breath. Just took some nyquil so i should be knocked out in a few minutes. lol. sweet dreams everyone, stay strong!!