cow-ard.

Today was ridiculous. I had sooooo many efing calories its crazy. I need to fast. and seriously. I need some ideas on how to control cravings...like I smoke but it seems like after an hour im even hungrier.....errrrgggg. help me.

.fast thru the pain.

Hello All,

My first post on blogspot & Im pretty excited about how Im looking. My mom said yesterday after not seeing me in two weeks "wow, you`ve lost more weight?" shes crazy, im still a fat pig. Iv been fasting for 2 days now. I had half of some sheppards pie before that and felt so sick. I dont understand why now whenever I eat a little bit of anything I feel sick to my stomach as if Im too full. I dont know how to make myself throw up or if I should even get started into that. Uhhhhggg help the cow please! lol. Other than that school is going ok and theres a party tonight. The guy throwing it is a huge hottie but Im sure he`ll never notice a fatty like me =(......I dont know what Im doing wrong but it seems like all the ugly guys are attracted to me. Maybe its because Im just ugly...lol. urrggh my life sucks. I dont know why but today is just kind of an ick day. Im sooo hungry but Im just going to keep chugging water and holding my breath. I WILL make it through this fast if it kills me....I have to make it to my GW...