Im totally being a pussy and crying my eyes out right now. I came to my moms house for the weekend and i knew this was going to be a big challenge. I did well for the first 2 days not going over 500 cals, but today i was so busy that i just didnt eat. so about 20 minutes ago i made this soft taco and told myself id eat it if i just threw it up. I tried and tried and tried and just couldnt do it. my stomach was killing me. i need to drink something to just make me throw up. then i cried to my mom and she hugged me and said that my figure looked fine, to hell with thta im a fat fucking cow. i hate myself i dont know what to do guys....seriously i feel like dying right now. my stomach has this taco in it and all i can think about is getting rid of it. maybe i should go running or do like 1000 crunches......i hate my life right now. in order for me to be able to smoke after this im not eating for 2 days. thats right, no food until tuesday with alot of working out in between that time.
xo
BJ
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Oh hun you know where I am if you need me xxx
I'm sorry you had a hard day. But we all make mistakes from time to time. You will be able to pick yourself back up!
Take care.
I take an anti depressant to help with my stress level.. and I also take adderall. I think my A/D is called Celexa. Anyway, weight has been falling off me when I take both!
i have a hard time purging too :o(
we're all here for you!
Go work out! You'll feel better bout the taco plus endorphins will improve your mood. Take care.
Awww forgive yourself. Just learn from it and don't do it ever again. Ever. You know it doesn't make you happy.
I want to say I love your blog. You are an inspiration to me. Stay strong, stay skinny.
Resist.
xoxo
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